Back.

Back to waking up with the feeling of total emptiness in my heart. Back to doubting myself. Back to questioning what it is about me that is preventing me from getting what I want. Back to telling myself I will not lower my standards (again). Back to me feeling alone and facing those feelings with honesty. Back to me needing to rely on friends for support and having most of them not understand what I am going through. Back to forcing the clouds of unhappiness away and trying to retain my dignity and sanity through this. Back to convincing myself that this was not a waste of time and I shouldn't blame myself.